jinx

i constantly jinx myself. i am a very optimistic person, so when something good is supposed to happen, i get all excited and tell people, and it never happens. now i wonder why this happens. some past examples include, but are not limited to: i had an interview from a job that went well, so i tell everyone, and it never happens or i meet a girl and things go great, so tell everyone that, and it goes downhill (definatly not the present situation) or the reason i am bringing it up right now, my friend in nyc sends me keys to his place on the upper east side (manhattan for you southerners) so kate and i can stay there sat night. well i tell everyone this great news and sure as shit... when i get the envelope the keys have been ripped out by one of the million machines the envelope went thru. arugh, this is my life, i knew the keys were on the way, i was happy and relaxed about the whole "what are we going to do sat night" situation, so i was optimistic and boom...gone. so we are figureing out other plans to get the keys, and hopefully everything will be ok.
what i have learned to do over the years (and i did not do in this case) is be pesimisitc about everything. when something happens always think it wont work out, becuse when it does... it's that much better. when i got excited about the keys knowing they were sent, i knew in the back of my mind it would faulter. well thats it, from now on pesimistic about everything.
"if it weren't for bad luck, i would have none at all" piece